#102 Bayang Kamu

Inspired by my random thoughts that I tweet-ed on Aug 5, 2015.

bila pagi,
aku bisa melihat bayang ayah semalam
di meja kerjanya,
berteleku dengan buku.

menjengah senja,
aku seperti terlihat bayang ibu
di teres rumah, membelek bunga
sedangkan ibu lagi ke pekan.

sesudah malam,
walau tahu dia keluar menonton bola,
aku seperti bisa membayang abang
di sudut dapur, membancuh milo-nya.

bayang kamu ...
sudah puas aku cari-geledah setiap isi rumah,
tak terjumpa kesan,
di mana kali terakhir kamu berada.

mungkin kerna sudah lama
maka, bayang-mu tidak terkesan di rumah kita.

have a safe journey

back to our home, Adik.

We're waiting for you :)

sarahsaa'din

#101 Calar

Jika aku-mu bisa menatap rupa-ku yang tidak mulus lagi berparut, sudi-kah kiranya kau menerima hati-ku penuh calar lagi berbekas duka?

sarahsaa'din

#95 Kerana Sayang

kerana sayang, Dia ajar kita merasa susah.
kalau tidak, Dia biarkan tidak di-endah.
kerana sayang, Dia tunjukkan jalan.
kalau tidak, Dia biarkan sesat tidak pulang.
kerana sayang, Dia mahu kita belajar
erti payah sebelum senang.
kerana sayang, Dia sentiasa ada
walaupun kadang, kita terlupa.

terima kasih untuk "sekali lagi" peluang.

sarahsaa'din

New Life.

Have you ever felt short of breath when you are running for miles without any warming-up session before it ? Or, have you ever experienced body aching after dancing out of beats ? Yet still, you love it. You love the sweats, pains, struggles as it makes you stronger than ever. That is precisely how I feel right now, and hell yeah, I am not regretting any of my decisions made !

Ouh, hello 2015 !
My new year just started.

sarahsaadin

#93 Farewell 2014

One of many years that I wish to remember for many years to come -- 2014.

2014 has been too good for me. So many good things happened. So many good memories I have made. I learnt about how's life being so fair to me, I learnt that best friends can either be your family or foes, and I got to know the feeling of seeing beautiful rainbow after stormy rainy weather. 2014 helped me find my oneself, helped me forgot those struggling year of 2012 and self-recovery phase in 2013. This year proved I grew stronger than before, in a new self-perspective, and yeah, I like this new me.

Scrolling down my Facebook timeline for this year and I realized that I have achieved so many personal goals. Though I struggled at first, but then, in the end I smiled and being proud of myself. Not just to say that I'm proud of myself as I graduated this year along with my fellow friends, but the most important thing that I have achieved in this year was, I re-discovered myself.

Since two years ago, I was not really emotionally stable, but I hid it well. Yeah, I expressed them mostly through writing. Sometimes I did cried myself to sleep yet still managed to put a smile on my face the next day. I was a little bit lost back then, and it took me two freaking years to be at this point I am standing right now. I have being mean towards few people simply because I found it was too hard for me to explain to them, or maybe they might not gonna understand my problems at all.

I learnt a lot about life.

1. Life is like a mysterious maze.

2. Look for Him, you will found your way.

3. You are on the right track when you are not interested with the past.

I learnt a lot about myself.

1. Writing is a therapy for me.

2. It also an escapism for me and makes me a little less cruel.

3. To only think about your feelings is not selfish. It is self-respect.

Life-hack that I have learnt:

"Pura-pura kau kuat, sampai satu masa kau lupa kau lagi sedang pura-pura, dan yang cuma tinggal hanya kau yang kuat sahaja."

Aku masih dalam perjalanan

mencari aku, juga sedang mengenal Tuhan.

sarahsaa'din

#62 Baru

... tuk tak ... tuk tak ...
gigih papan kekunci diketuk .
... shrit shrit ... shrit shrit ...
bergerisik kertas diselak .
... psst psst ... psst psst ...
sayup-sayup suara curi berbual .

sesekali ku curi pandang ,
tiada alis mata yang berbalas senyuman .

*mengeluh*

semua kepala menunduk malu
tapi bukan dengan aku ,
cuma berteleku ,
di depan komputer , endahkan kewujudan aku .


ini, baru buat aku .

sarahsaadin