I Don't Know

for how many time :

the moment when I recite a surah in my prayers, and out of sudden I'm in tears. And all I want to do is to go straight to sujuud and let out everything to Allah.

I admit that I'm not a strong person as what people see me. I know I'm not.

You just don't know what I've been through.

Having no one close besides me, to share with, what I've been feeling.

Let not say, it's you who are obviously walk away,

even Aty turn away from me when I utter your name.

I even try to lighten my burden by seeking one of your best friend

because I've been thinking that she might understand you better.

Then, she get busier, so I prefer not to interrupt her study.

now,

I'm by myself.

Pathetic.

idk for how many time,

after my prayers, i went to sujuud again,

crying , letting out everything to Him,

because of you.

for the first time in my life, I cry over a guy. Like this.
-Moga Allah beri aku kekuatan-